Just Inside the End

Not Unlike You

Just pay attention to these words
Fault-lines shiver and are covered
By meaningless sentences sent in close succession from this place
"
Not from an empire or a suit
But someone small not unlike you
Trying something so bold as to converse across starry scape
"
("It only takes a while...)
(...just wait it out and it will be")
("it only takes a while...)
(...finally words created for me")
I can't wait much longer out here
Words must have frozen in the fear
Of such a distance that would surely crush my weak and shallow mind
“
("It only takes a while...)
(...just wait it out and it will be")
("it only takes a while...)
(...finally words created for me")
("this cold could paralyze...)
(...but I hope that you will wait for me")
("this cold will paralyze...)
(...but I know that you will wait for me")

*bold: Brent's vocals

 

 

 

This Sudden Change

And I don’t know now
How to keep this up or how to end
If there’s no difference
Then nothing’s all this ever meant
Where have our words gone?
Has the wind dried up and worn away
All that we had
Held tight against this sudden change?
This is gonna change
And do you hear that?
Or am I just wishing words to hear
From a language
Withering in this dim atmosphere?
And nothing is spared
From the unfelt exhaustion of this hate
So we shift the focus
And brace against this sudden change
This is gonna change

It's a Wheel

I can't go
Haven't I learned enough?
The trail gets far too rough
Each time
Why can't I
Remember to remember you?
You're all that I have to
Keep me here
It's not worth it
To pull through this door again
Seeing all my old new friends
For what's not
Of this course
No choice but to follow
Each time I am more hollow
Inside
It’s a wheel
It’s a wheel
It’s a wheel
It’s a wheel

Silence is Golden

I’m sitting at the top of the stairs
Waiting for this to end
If it ever does
I understand that this is wrong
These sounds don’t belong
In my ears
I’m sitting at the top of the stairs
Waiting for this to end
If it ever does
Wonder if there’s something I can do
To try and help you
I think that I can
Silence is golden here now
Don’t say a word of what you heard
To keep things right
Don’t touch the light
Silence is golden here now
Ignore the holes that you see
Just go and see
Who’s outside
I’m sitting at the top of the stairs
Waiting for this to end
If it ever does
3 vs. 1 seems like a win
Even if it stays in
Where no one knows
Silence is golden here now
Things make no sense to me
When all is done
There’s still no one
Silence is golden here now
Everyone acts this way sometimes
But they all lie
And stay inside
They don’t lie....
Silence is golden here now
Just go to sleep without dreams
The morning’s seems
So much clearer
Silence is golden here now
Don’t say a word of what you heard
Forget the night
But kill the light
I’m sitting at the top of the stairs
Waiting for this to end
If it ever does

Fire Red and Strange

I can’t forget those cold dark nights
That made me feel so warm inside
Our chances to lie without blame
Lengthened by our staying late
Waking to fire red and strange
Mornings drowning in cold rain
After my voice cracks and falters
The message glistens without words
Everyone moves within lines of
Wavering sight, cuz
We’re safe here flood-wise
I'm right here where I lost you
Where I lost you
No matter how close things won't touch
And nothing ever mattered much
Focus on this bright nowhere
As long as it's close we won't care
Cutting just to tempt the surface
Makes me nervous
And quite certain
I'm right here where I lost you
Where I lost you
Cold is rising from where you stood
Radiating
Breathing my name
I'm right here where I lost you
Where I lost you
I'll melt the frost from my eyes
To see further
Where there's no weather
I'm still here where I lost you
Where I lost you

What We're Waiting For

Foundation of a stage
His syllables carry weight
Recipients of some truth
Take it in but never use
Protection of the questions
Piggybacking rightful change
Surely rolling our eyes can help
To clean up this awful place
I don’t know what we’re waiting for
(I don’t know...I can see why we just didn’t belong)
Hypocritical critiques
Of what no one can see
Do we need a little push
To get us off this fabric truth?
My syllables float away
Gliding into shallow graves
Covered up with your laughs
I’m not the best nor the last
I don’t know what we’re waiting for
(I don’t know...I can see why we just didn’t belong)

He's Pleading Again

The rocks seem fragile this time around
How long has it all been here?
He doesn’t come around much anymore
It would seem he can’t be shared
I saw her smoking from across the street
A demon in a sun dress
The snow piled all around her feet
River poets stuck in regret
Caving in might not be a choice
But who could tell in these lights?
Run at thunder, thunder can’t hurt
And all I see are fading heights
I’ll take you in and I’ll talk it out
And make you lose your way
Use and laugh and go about your day
You-know-who can’t be far away
Those two are no good, anyone can see
They leave everything undone
No one told me I was uninformed
As two slips into one
It’s colder here since you showed up
A headache coupled with hell
Soon you’ll need something from me
So please don’t wish me well

You'll Be Sorry When I'm Dead

Waited for the rain to stop this morning
Before I got out of my bed
Think I’ll finally turn my back this morning
On all those awful things that you said
All I have is the weather to remind me of you
I don’t care what comes next when there’s no you
You may not look at me but I’ll make you turn your head
You may hate me but I bet you’ll be sorry when I’m dead
Took a walk down by the West Street church
Just to touch the air we once breathed
Since you like ending things this should please you
As you wished you won’t ever see me - again
I know acceptance is worth more than gold
That is something that you will have to admit
Even though you’re not sorry for what you said
I’m counting on that you’ll be sorry when I’m dead
You’ll be sorry when I’m dead

Dreadful Invention

I'm trying to think of what to say
The words don't come so easily
Conveying messages in rhyme
Is more tedious time after time
Throw this complaint in the pile
Or make a list that runs for miles
Maybe making sense is impossible
Or maybe this should stay inside
I'm so sick of myself
Clear a space on the shelf
Another loop is certain
The future's a dreadful invention
Space isn't place until we are in
Will nothing justify my actions?
A few days off are coming up
But we all know that won't help at all
Like a cycle or a role
Seems set in stone - dim and cold
I hope this falls on deaf ears
I hope this ends inside the mirror
Let's change the meaning of this
Worry and hope that's pointless
All steps are taken, not lost or won
The future's a dreadful invention

This Chance

Opinions
Push limits
Our time is falling now
Stay quiet
Loudly sigh
Old signs standing on new ground
Stretching Thursday
Lack of escape
Separate the sounds inside
From this vantage
Silent waves
Make your eyes brighter than mine
This chance is motion in our hands

Forming light just inside the end