(a)way

Dear Susan

Dear Susan I hope that you’re doing well
I am feeling better than I could tell
Through a simple letter sent through the mail
I wanted to thank you for
For the time you took to construct the lies
That held me high, so I could look down from the sky
On all the moving people that could not fly
You made me wish they would die
Can you wait?
You carved the cliffs so I couldn’t see the edge
Or ‘member which up was a down-sided lift
I would wait a million years for this
Moment you’d prefer to miss
You raised the dead just to keep me in line
The stories swift and piercing blue right through rhyme
Or reason - something you made me decline
You made me wish I would die
Can you wait?
Where is she now? She’s not near you at all
And you’ve been walking so proud and so tall
But it was not your doing at all
It came straight out of me
But you would never plant credit as a seed
And I know every trick you have up your sleeve
Every act - greed from far inside
And for that I wish you would die
Can you wait?
Dear Susan I hope that you’re doing well
I’m feeling better than I could tell
Through a simple letter sent through the mail
I wanted to say goodbye

Dead Enders

You stand so firmly
And I move too early
To see this end
The snow keeps o falling
And you’re not knowledgeable
About what’s next
A light in this silence I said “You’re eyes look dead”
That’s where I
Step out of line
You’re not what I want after all
You’re not what I thought
Because causes break
Doesn’t always make this
Just a lost cause
So we just conclude
That we will always lose
To this all
You’re faith in all these things is a light in your dead eyes
That’s where I
Step out of line
You’re not what I want after all
You’re not what I thought

Ina Kelly

Ina Kelly
Why would I stay for this end
You’re writing?
Swimming in this light
We used to think our hands were
Never Tied
At this early
Remove I lose
Faith in everything that’s waiting
For an ending
All descending
From the above we are nothing
I can’t see why we bother
Ina Kelly
Why would I stay for your sake?
You’re fading
Ina Kelly
We keep hold of this low change
Still the same
At this early
Remove I lose
Faith in everything that’s waiting
For an ending
All descending
From the above we are nothing
I can’t see why we bother

(You Can Always) Look Away

But that’s okay
You wouldn’t want this anyway
You wouldn’t want what I have left
To lift you through the days
I can’t be your hero
I can’t imagine if this was
What they intended when
They left us here alone
But I don’t wanna see
The way that you would be
When you see me
When you see me for what I’ve become
A lot like you
But I can’t stand to see
The life inside your dream
But I want it
When you want it
To kill this hazy life
But I can’t be your hero
That’s okay
The truth is out anyway
The words, jumbled, lay there flat
On the floor for us to trip
Over them
I said it
I’m sure you heard it                                                             
I’m sure you’ll still pick it back up
And toss it at me
But I’m not sure if
The truth is strong enough
To relieve it
To believe in what I’ve promised you
My worthless words
Cuz I’m lost w/out
Your path leading out
Of this dated
Overrated rituals
That slowly kills...                                                            
....so nice
My space has used up it’s time
West Street’s just another side
To the same old lie
But it is all that we have
The traffic belongs to us
The sick figures gliding past
Our angels to dispose of
You can always look away
You can always look away
You can always look away
You can always look away

The Same

You’re seeing all but you know the lights are out
You won’t wait for tomorrow
I’m staying awake waiting for the slightest sound 
Of slipping out
I can see you’re heading for this nothing
And nothing’s all you ever felt that you deserved.
I can see you throwing off the weight
You won’t wait
Because you won’t be the same
You clipped your conversation so the paint would last
Over this rusting bridge
But I won’t stay here waiting for the cold water
To swallow us
I can only see what’s in front of me
A fear I won’t recognize you at all
So I am staying awake
Waiting for the sound
Of the water
When you won’t be the same

What I've Lost

Your lack of skill makes me sigh
And turn away once again
From something slight something sacred
Except a deity
I wonder if this will
Will end everything we’ve said
Because you’re nothing better than
Better than what I’ve had
I wonder if this is over
Cuz the look in your eyes have changed
But I’ve never been too much for symbols
And now I’m reading into everything
They must be wondering what that sound is
Coming from below when they lie
Down to sleep every single night
They know that it will never die
Oh no
This is what I’ve lost
Take me further than I’ve been
Because that’s just what I need now
The curving makes so anxious
A shut in would never allow
Cuz I wonder if that shade can go
Any further toward the floor
Cuz I can’t see the outside any
More than you can open your door...
To any stranger that would stand there
Making it just like a Leonard Cohen song
But I’ve never had such heard such a shatter
Coming from everything you thought was wrong
Oh no
This is what I’ve lost